Time Travel

If I could go back in time, I'd go back to the time of Jesus. I want to see the resurrection, and the other events. I want to have the level of faith of the apostles. It's impossible 2000 years after the fact. I'd build a time machine just for that. I don't care if I don't get blessed because I don't see and yet believe. I want to see it!
The second reason I'd want a time machine would be to go back and fix the mistakes I've made in my life. To go to the prom, to go to the meetings at my first and only Prepress job. To learn Indesign instead of Quark in my earliest Prepress training.

Secrets

There's a lot of times that I should have kept quiet about things but didn't. My real problem is not with keeping secrets but with bursting out something I regret. Or telling my obsessive compulsive brother about something that will add to his list of compulsions.

What's keeping me from my dream job

What's keeping me from my dream job is the managers at printing companies. They want to save money so they run the prepress department with one or two guys. "We're happy with the people we've got." So the bodies of prepress guys are keeping me from my dream job. The economy is also keeping me from my dream job. My depression is also keeping me from my dream job. I lack motivation and they cannot afford me, despite my willingness to accept any salary. Also, my loyalty to my family has hurt me. I probably could have a job in another city, but I don't want to take plane trips all the time to see my relatives.